:((

Saturday, 28 July 2012

Falling down,,,

Last Thursday is really worst day for me..

I've my presentation with my group, I'm a Project Manager for this Project..

But during the presentation, the lecturer asked many question till I can't answer and so did my friends..

When one of lecturer ask my friends, my friends can't answer it, all because I can't manage all well.. I didn't give them what should they really do.. Our system have many logical error..What the hell.. We are defeat by lecturer.. They asked so many answer..I can't hold on.. Really need something or someone to help me to face it.. I can't hold on anymore that time.. But still to.. Yahh.. so damn sad.... :(

I never feel like that before...this is the first time I feel i'm feeling fail in life... Feeling crash like a hell..

I cried whole night for what've done...

Really sad... :'(

I really afraid that my friends would be failed because of my unprofessional management..SHIT....

What should I do God?

Someone could tell me?
Sorry my friends...My team...
I'm failed.. I don't wanna give up..:'( :'(

:'( :'( :'(

:(( :(( :((

Trying to believe but sometimes really make us dissapointed

Friday, 20 July 2012

B E L I E V E

Believe someone and keep it believe was a beautiful thing.. but this life never escape from the lies..

so believe is too hard to keep it forever...

When u've decided to always believe him/her, they possibly don't decided to always saying truth to you.. It's hurt, isn't it?
Hahaha.

They might be forget to grant their promise to us..hahah..

They might be got something important than our promise..haha

They might be feeling "It's important?"
Hahha..
Many possibly..hahaha..

I even don't know what am I talking about.wkwkkwk..


^^

Taemin Birthday 18 July 2012

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Yeheee...Today is my Idol's Birthday..
Feel so excited even thought that I can't give him a gift..hhohoh..

but nevermind I make a wish for him and for myself in my heart : p
Emmm..
This is the first time, really a first time I'm so addicted with Artist.. and  he is Korean Artist..
I'll introduce my Idol to all of you >,<

• Full Name: Lee Taemin (이태민)
• Nicknames: Taemin
• Birthdate: July 18, 1993
• Hometown: Dongbong-gu, Seoul
• Height: 175-179cm
• Weight: 50-55kg
• Blood Type: B
• Family: Parents, Older Brother
• Favorite Color: White, Yellow, Red
• Favorite Food: Steak/Beef
• Favorite Artists/Role Models: Michael Jackson, Usher, Justin Timberlake
• Hobbies/Specialties: Dancing [Popping], Piano, Mandarin, Listening To Music

Emmm..He is Maknae in his group... still young but Today he is really become a MAN..hehe.
Not a BOY :p

Last night I drew chibi figure of Taemin..heheh
Let me show you..I'm so proud of my drawing *actually taught by one of my friend :p
But nevermind, as long as I draw it with my heart..hihih

Happy Birthday My Lovely Taemin..
Wish u always stay happy and healthy and always perform the best for yourself, your family, your group, your company and for us.... ^^
May all your dreams come true....

Can't describe

Tuesday, 17 July 2012

Un-Describable feeling..

Last night I just heard that my Best Friend's Mom was passed away. This news totally defect me. 

My heart keep beating, my eyes seems filled by a ton of tears..I can't hold on and I walk out from the class.

I sat at stair and keep thinking what's really happened.

Yahh...I can't face this truth, I feel very very sad that can't describe. My tears keep falling down like the rain.

I can't imagine how my dear friend face this truth..Totally down.. :'(
Dear friend, hold on and I know u're strong. : )

Tell me and shout me when u need me..I'll be everywhere for you ..

Life is so unpredictable, human born and passed away is a must. But it's so sad when the sad thing, passed away happened on our friends or family around us..

So I just have a word, Cherish them before they walked away from ur life. 

^^

Keep calm and carry on :)

Thursday, 31 May 2012

Hohoho..I think I make the post triple a month...In the early of month, middle of month and the end of month..wkwkwk..
May I just got 3 post and it's really schedule at early, middle and end..wkwkkww..

Today I wanna tell about my half month life since 14 May till today..
I walk through this month with many kind of emotion and weather.. Happy, Joy, Sad, Cry, Rainy day, Sunny day, Cloudy day..Hahaha..

First that I wanna to mention is about my assignment.. I did my assignment not really well.. I think I won't got the good result for it..:(
I should try my best for my next 2 big assignment..I'm stress of them..I hate this kind of life :(
I don't like stress :'(
But It must to achieve my graduation... Keep Calm and Carry On ^,^..
I know I can do it..although it's bit hard..
Hwaiting !!!

Second that I have to have my holiday soon.. I'll go for a vacation with my classmates at Bintan..Yehehee..
The schedule is on 9-10 June..We go for 2 days 1 night..hehe...Hope it will be a great vacation..and unforgettable memories..hehe..
We are all about 20 person..
And today is already 31 May..How I give a reason for my boss to take this leave???
How how??
Somebody help me...
I want to tell him honestly..but would he allowed ?? huhuhu..
then if I lie to himm.. After this vacation..My friends will upload photo to Facebook..and how to face this problem if they found out this lie...HUAAAAAA :'(...This would be my homework for these week to bring out the best reason...~.~

Third, Life is unpredictable..people come and people go... What should we do to make all perfect???
We are unperfect human..how to make all things perfect?
Who can teach me?
When people nice to you.. appreciate it..don't let down them, but sometime just to hard to make all perfect..
Sorry if I let you down..
Everything happens for a reason..and I believe it...
Realize it and follow your heart :)
I will try to make all perfect but need to sacrifice something...^^

Yeahhh..
So those my words :)

Hwaiting all !!

Life for stress

Monday, 14 May 2012

It has been 14 May..half of this month have been passed...
I just don't realize it..I will face an final exam for this term 1 week more..OMG @.@
It's really fast.. and now i also got one assignment that make me so stressed...huhuhu..
Hoping i can done it well... and release myself from all of these, I'm too tired to do this kind of assignment..I hate it >,<

After this term, I must face my short term in my college.. The reason I decided to have a short term emm,,to lighten my 7th term.. because I also will face heavy assignment at 7th term..
Even though it's hard, but have to keep move on..
It's one year left..After this one year..Emmm..I'm free..heheh..
Free means no assignment concern with college again..but i'm sure will miss my college life after that..hehehe

Ok well..today is Monday,, many people said It's Monday blue...
The day that so blue....so bored...so lame..so uneasy... *my awful description =))

Yeah... It's time for work..
Happy Working All ^^
Have a nice day :)

Fighting ^^

Thursday, 03 May 2012

Taemin ahh..
Nobody support me to loving you..They said I was crazy...were I?
:'(
I just in a short time being in love with you, you are cute..you dance great and your smile is sweet..so I like to see you..
Huhuhuh..
I just one of million fans of you..hohoho..
I think there would be another fans of you would be more crazy than me..hoohoh..
Yeah...I just like to see you..
Actually I'm afraid that i would be same as other fans..they are no crazy..they just fond of you coz of ur cuteness.hahahah..
Well..
I should forget this thing and put you in another side..I know it couldn't happened in real life..so i just imagine of you..hahhaah.. <3

emmm.. realize that i live in Batam-Indonesia, so don't think too much about the idol or something else..heheh and now I'm not a kid anymore, i must fight for my future..hohooh..

But before that,,I've to finished my study for one year more..Hope it can pass faster.. I want to have my own world..Have many things to learn to gain..hehehe..

I hope i can give comfy life for my family and myself..hoho..
Must be work hard and trust myself that i can..heheh..
So you guys also must have the spirit to fight for your future ^^



FIGHTING !!!!!