Forgive me..

Friday, 28 December 2012


Forgive me that I don't know what should I do..
I'm so tired for thinking this matter for a time..
You can say me impatient or what...
But I really don't know what should I do..

Decision is on myself..
But I can't decide it..
I hate myself so much...
I'm so egoist..but It has a reason...
So that you also have your own reason...

But now I've told you..I wanna rest my heart n my mind...
I don't know what exactly u mean...
I don't know what exactly you want..
Maybe I can't give you mine..
Maybe I'm wrong and you too...

Let's get our own freedom..
Maybe u will realize one day...
I don't know it's right or wrong...
I hope I can do it well...
And so did you...

We still be a friend...
Although my heart is aching...
I hope this will pass...
And have another bright day...^^

*Nobody will know how someone feel so suffer until they experience it..

Follow my heart or my mind?

Friday, 21 December 2012


Follow what?
Follow mind?
Follow heart?

Think too much..will bringing bad ending..wkkwkwkwkw...

Then let it be?
and walk away...hahahha..
or keep it?

Start from the beginning~

Friday, 07 December 2012

TGIF...

3rd day...
I've try my best although have been ignore and many more..
But I want to try again...
I don't want to be regret..

I've so many words from the beginning....
But I'm not said it out...
So ending like this..
I just need a chance...A chance i hope : )

Amin...

I'll get you back

Thursday, 06 December 2012


I'll Get YOU Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Heart You So Much

Wednesday, 05 December 2012

I HEART YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm childish?

Wednesday, 14 November 2012

Good evening guys....It's raining heavily right now at my place..Feel so warn even though my heart was empty..hahaha....

Yahh...yesterday someone said that I'm become childish now..Am I? Really?
As I read the sentence... I can't describe my feeling..haha...
Feel so hurt and so down .. But...Nevermind..that's the point so I can change and become better...heheh..:')

Love sometimes can be so happy but sometimes hurt like a hell...Hahahhaha...It's true...
Ehhh....Why I said about love? Am I in love right now? Hope it's not...
Because I still not ready yet...I'm lonely maybe yehhh....wkkwkwkw...

I want to concentrate about my assignment now, and hope something can make me busy so I won't thinking others that can make my day blues...hahaha..

My feeling now is like a heavily rain now.... 
I really wanna go to a place that nobody's there...Hahhaha...
Someone just force me or appear in front of me and take me go..I'll go...Hahahha...

Ahhh...raining so warm...
Have a nice day ;)

Smile :) or Cry :'(

Wednesday, 07 November 2012

Good morning...^^

Lately I'm so confused about this life... sometimes feel that I can be an independent girl but sometimes feel that I really need someone to lean on... But.............................

Yah.... I've a question for you all that have been haunting me for a time...
Few days ago I was reading the tweet from the twitter..
It says... Choose the person who can make u smile not can make u cry, because with smile, your day will be bright...
Then I also read one of tweet again and it says If you cry it means you love her/him and if you smile it means you like her/him...

So what exactly the right one?
I know you will answer depend of ourselves and depend to our heart, just follow your heart..
But sometimes seems so difficult to choose,,isn't it?
Imagine that you guys in this situation...What would you do?

Hohoho...
It's kinda difficult question for me..I don't know how about you?
Haahhahah... take as you homework =p

Just a question... guess how the answer of you..

Have a nice day ^^

Simply Life is Good!

Monday, 05 November 2012

1st wish on November, wishing world peace and everything going smoothly especially my final paper or assignment..Fighting!

Here today I wanna share about simply life meaning I got after I read one of the article that my Lecturer share to me. The article contain a journey of life, life pursuits and life meaning exactly by him (Dr. Richard Teo).

In this article, he said that he was born in an average family mean economy in standard stage, and he want to gain his aim by earning much money and got a lot of thing and reach the pinnacle of life. He then work hard, study hard and finally he got the business, the surgery business kinda like plastic surgery to fulfill those auntie-auntie or others satisfied. After he got a lot of money, he spend his life with a highly standard, every weekend will hang out or clubbing with his friend and make a friend with those rich guy and rich girl and even having a friend like miss world or something. He thought that he is the happiest guy that time. 

Every Chinese Lunar New Year, he will drive his luxury sport car to his relative's house to show off and making many things that he feel he is the great one. And one day, he feel that his back was hurt and going to his friend's place (a doctor also) to have a check up. His friend said that he got the 4th stage of lung cancer. Suddenly he feel that he just got what he want but end up with 4th stage of lung cancer with no hope of life anymore.

When he write this article, he realize that all of the wealth he have can't bring him to the happiness he want. Actually what he need is the concern and love from the people around him such as family of friends.

And now he has already passed away.

He also give the messages for us. The messages got 2 point:

1. Trust in the Lord your God with all your heart – this is so important.
2. Is to love and serve others, not just ourselves.

The post above is just a summary from what I've read. If you want to read the full article, you can click here

Rest in Peace Dr. Richard Teo, God always stay beside you..Amin

From this article, I've learn that exactly a lot of thing will be got by money but something that we couldn't pay by money, that's happiness with purely heart to server others.

Simply life is Good! I'll try to not expect too much that will disserve others and make my life goods. It's worst.

Trust in Lord your God with all your heart, the most important to have your inner happiness.
Always try to serve others with your truly and sincere heart.
And then you will find your happiness.
I hope I can find my inner happiness soon...I think I can do it...and also You the reader ; )

^^

Nice day all..Have a awesome Monday!

SRS will gone soon

Friday, 19 October 2012

SRS would be disappear soon..right? yeahh...maybe it's the time you have to go, you're waiting for so long or I'm making you waiting too long?

Feeling not bear to let you go if you really wanna go.

I don't have a right to make you stay, I don't know how to make you stay, I don't have courage to make you stay and I'm not ready yet to make you stay...

I know impossible to ask somebody to wait us while you're not ready yet and can't give him/her definitely answer...it's too egoist..

I'm trying to forget all about this thing, trying to buck up myself and point ahead my future.

Dazzling Girl - SHINee

Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Hey guys,,,You guys know SHINee, isn't it?
SHINee - A korean pop Boy Group that have 5 members in it.. Under SMEnt Label
Those are Onew, Jonghyun, Minho, Key and Taemin ^^
They have been produce many album whether it was Korean or Japanese album..
And now I want to share to all of you..
The lately Japanese song they sang...The song is Dazzling Girl..I like it so much...
Here is it ! Enjoyy~~~ Jjanggg....

That's great.. the music and the dance...just so awesome..and Taemin so sweet..Always smile...hihihihi...

Nice day all with the Dazzling Girl..

I need hair

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

I need hair badly..who want to donate it to me?hahahah..

I have a hair problem since secondary school...I don't know how to solve it..
I have tried so many method to cure..But none of them are doing well..

I'm so tired...maybe this word is too bored to say..But it's real..wkwkwkwkwk..
Emm..
I ever think to shaved my hair...so it can re-grow...
But how to do?
May i get permission from my situation now...
So many situation doesn't allowed it..
Hahaha...

What can I do? and what should I do?
Galau'ing...wkwkkwkwkw.. ='))

Need air

Friday, 05 October 2012

TGIF ^^...

It's already Friday..Times do flies so fast..and my life is still continue struggling unknown..
I don't know what I want..
Seems lately I'm feeling confusion..
Got so many unclosed matter keep coming to me..or I'm thinking too complicated? I even don't know about it..

I wish I can have another life in another country...or someone can take me go to some peacefully place..I need it..
Many things to think..
All of them just so important..Trying to not hurt others and feeling so tired..
Nobody knows what actually happen and so am I..
Life is crazy isn't it..
Somehow when we are alone, we will think so much and make life complicated..
and when we are happy,, all of them just disappeared, don't know where they're going..

I'm a girl,, who try to not to disturb others and try to be independent..
I'm sure I can although sometimes I feel I almost give up, but maybe this is the challenge of life..
and I always fine with it..

Stay far and don't be so kind to me.. Because I don't know how to pay your kindness...
I just can say sorry..

Unknown feeling by Anonymous..

I Love You Everyday

Wednesday, 03 October 2012

I Love You Everyday by Lady Jane

Lady jane and VJ

neoreul saranghae saranghae maeil nan haru jongil ni saenggak ppunin geol (thinkin’ of you all the time)
neodo malhaejwo malhaejwo sae sarang handa naege malhaejwo (I’ll tell you everyday)
narang norajwo norajwo maeil hokshi rado nal honja dujin ma (nah, I’ll never do it)
neowan eodideun eodideun yes eodi rado haengbok halgeoya

girl, whatever you want nege julge
neoneun mwol wonha neunji naege geunyang malman hae
yeotae ggeot mu eol hago eodi sumeo isseotni
wae ijeya nata natni
my life was full of parties, but I left it all behind me

han yeojaman baraboneun namja, that’s me right now
ni yeojeon namchingwa na dalla igeon gaekgi anya
jeong hwakhi malhalge physically and mentally
I can provide you with whatever you need cause you were meant for me

cham gomawo chamgge yeoseo nun busheo nal bomyeo utneun ni moseub
neomu sarang seureowo eodi gajima

neoreul saranghae saranghae maeil nan haru jongil ni saenggak ppunin geol nah, we’ll never be apart
neodo malhaejwo malhaejwo say sarang handa naege malhaejwo I’ll tell you again and again and again
narang norajwo norajwo maeil hokshi rado nal honja dujinma I’ll satisfy you
neowan eodideun eodideun yes eodi rado haengbok halgeoya

eodideun malmanhae, jijunghae ye rijoteu
mulgwa gongi joheun shigol animyeon basketball court
mwodeun malmanhae, fancy hotels and restaurants
cheongdam ye boutiques animyeon dongdae mun whatever that you want
mullon muljiri jeonbuga anin geoseul areo
sasohan geot gieok hago chaengyeo jugo
gomawo haneun mam nata naegi
dangyeonhi sesange niga tae eona jwoseo gomabdan malhae julgeoya nalmada

da joheungeol mabeob cheoreom shigihae nan neowa hamkke isseumyeon
manyang useumi nawa eodi gajima

neoreul saranghae saranghae maeil nan haru jongil ni saenggak ppunin geol
neodo malhaejwo malhaejwo say sarang handa naege malhaejwo
narang norajwo norajwo maeil hokshi rado nal honja dujinma
neowan eodideun eodideun yes eodi rado haengbok halgeoya

neoreul saranghae saranghae maeil (girl you can always count on me)
neoreul saranghae saranghae maeil (cause i know that you’re the one that was meant for me)

neomu saranghae saranghae neol dan haru rado tteoreo jigi shilheo
neodo malhaejwo malhaejwo sae eonje rado tto deudgo shipeo
neomu saranghae saranghae neol i malloneun neomuna bujokhae
neowan eodideun eodideun yes eodi rado ttara galgeoya

My Gift ^^

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

Hihihi..

I've promised before that I'll post my Birthday gift that I got from my Friends...
Here they are:

Tadaaaaaa.....

Big Gift I give for myself 

Gift from my Buddy (Ce Tina,Khun Hia & Selly)

Gift from my Besties

Gift from Bro

Gift from Devil Monk

Thanks everybody for the gift although I didn't celebrate it..Hahaha...
^^
And today is also my Special day (Lunar Birthday) and my Brother special day...hihi..
My brother will have a new born baby soon..I think It's already out :p
My niece...born today...(detail update later)

Hohoho...Feel great ^^..and Thanks to the God...

Holiday + Concert

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

And guyssss tomorrow I'll go to Jakarta......Yeheeee...\:D/

Feel so excited..wondering that tonight I can sleep or not...Buahahahaha....

Emmm...Last night I've prepared all my things and put them in my small suitcase.. and maybe tonight I'll complete them all =p

I bring a small suitcase and one small backpack...hihihi..

Suitcase filled by my clothes and backpack filled with my little useful stuff...hihih..

Tomorrow I take a morning flight around 8.45..

And I must arrive there about 7.00 I think...But I don't know how to go there.. Maybe by Taxi...pittt..pittt...xixixix...

One of my friend is offering me to go with him..But I think I have bother him a lot... So I think maybe I'll go by myself..Be a independent girl ba !!!! : D

Yeyeee..

I think tomorrow I'll be over exciting till stomachache or something else..wkwkwkkw..

Hope I can control myself..hihihi...

Fighting ZLFonk ^^

My Day ~

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

Thanks God I've been born for 21 years and I'm healthy and still alive in this world...

Yay! Today is my Day...My Special Day.....
I want to thanks to the GOD, to my Parents who give birth me in this world and also want to thanks to my Friends who always stay around me,,.Thank You...

*Short Speech...LOL

Emmm Emm...
Feeling so blessed and happy today, got surprise from my colleagues last night at BCS Mall,,
They celebrate my birthday with a pinky cake and a lot of of GIFT...and I like the GIFT..Thanks Buddy :*

 

My Princess Cake >,<

My Buddy ^^

Hahahha...Haven't took a photo of their gift...Update later =p

Emm...So happy and surprise and touched *not cry..wkwkwkw..

Yay...and this morning got many Birthday Greeting from my Friends although I've try to keep it by myself but couldn't..wkwkwk..
Thanks Friends for your greeting ^^...Buddha Bless You..
and tonight I'll stay at home to packing my stuff..hihiihh...
2 days to go to Jakarta...#awww...Excitedddd....

Hope all is going well....Lalalalalala...

Oh yah...surprisingly my Birthday is same with Amber f(x)..hihihi..but she is younger than me..she is 1992 and I'm 1991...Saengil Chuka Amber Dongsaeng *seems like we know each other..LOL...

Have a nice Tuesday all ^^

The day is coming soon

Saturday, 15 September 2012

Hello friends,

The reason that I don't make a post for a 2 weeks because that my mind is blank.. Don't know I wanna post and have no mood to post too..

Yahh..blog is the place to pour out my feeling my day my experience and also my everything that I wanna share.

Emm..Today is 15 September, so it means that my college is waiting for me 2 days more and also Jakarta is waiting for me 5 days more..Feel so excited..hihihih... 

Actually I feel so down when I know that there are also SMTOWN concert held at Singapore..It held on 23 November and Singapore is near with Batam but unfortunately the news come lately..I've bought the Jakarta one..but nevermind, as long as I can watch for one..hehe..

and yesterday I've got my SMTOWN ticket from my friend. Yah...it's already on my hand..yahuiiii...>,<
Time flies, it's left 5 days and I will go to Jakarta...hehehe..
I hope this concert will become a most meaningful moment.. and I thought this concert I give it for myself as a birthday gift...Hohoho...It only different 4 days with my Birthday..heheheh...

I also buy some stuff for this concert like Light Stick and SMTOWN T-Shirt although none of them is official.. Official merchandise are very expensive but hope it would be a stand in front of Gelora Bung Karno and selling the official merchandise so I can get one of them and is enough...hehhehe...

I like to buy tumblr if there are have..All the official merchandise I think tumblr is the most useful for me..I can take it everywhere with water..hehe..Hope there are really have a stand [-o<

Yeahh..These all I want to share..
and have a nice weekend ^^

First day of September

Saturday, 01 September 2012

Yay..September is coming..that's mean my month..hehehe..

But the first day of September has been gimme attempt to face this September.. 

Yahh..I join the contest design the credit card and the due date is 31 August 2012, so yesterday I sent it about 8pm and got the undelivered mail at 10.46.. I've slept already :(
So sad...

Then this morning I resend again with another website..Hope I can give this chance to join this contest..Really hope it..

19 days to go, I'll visit Jakarta soon and go for SMTOWN Concert. Feeling so excited and I've already got the ticket and now the ticket is on my friend's hand.

Wanna see the ticket as soon as possible..heheh

Oww yeee...1 week ago I've been dreamed something related with Concert and SHINee..feel so real and so happy...I'll post my dream later..hehhee...

Today is Saturday and hope it'll be a nice weekend and beginning of month : )

Happy Birthday Mother :***

Yeahhh...It's already morning..hehehe...2.25AM...hhihihi...


I can't sleep and decided to write this post to greeting for my Mother's Birthday...
Saengil Chukaa Mother.. *although my mother now is sleeping soundly..hehe..

Emmm.. My wishes for my Mother's Birthday are:
1. Hope she is always stay healthy *Important once
2. Hope she is always happy *always smile and laugh ooo Mother :)
3. Hope all wishes she wish can be come true ^^..

Forgive me if I can't do the best but I'll try... I even don't have the gift for your birthday..
But I hope gift is not the object to be a good daughter.. Thanks if you're understand..

Yahhh..Mother.. I know I'm not a filial daughter..
Sometimes I will make u angry, worried and don't obey you...
I would improve myself to become more filial daughter.. I will make you proud as I can..
Mother always wishes the best for us..and I always wish the best for Mother too..

Sometimes I don't show how to be filial daughter but it doesn't mean that I'm un-filial daughter,,
I just can't show it directly to you.. I don't know how to show that.. Hope you can feel my care..


Yah...day by day,, people become older so does you Mom.. so you must always stay healthy and happy..
I don't  know it's impossible..but I wish and I hope : )
Thanks for have given birth of us,,your daughters and your sons...
Today is the most special day of the year because if it weren't for the day you were born, I wouldn't have been born either!
Love you Mom...


祝您生日快乐..
希望您每天都能快快乐乐..
祝您长命百岁...

Extremely Amazing

Friday, 10 August 2012

TGIF.. ^^

Yehahhhh...Everybody...tell you something..I will go to SMTOWN World Tour Live III Concert @Jakarta on 22 September 2012...
OMG..I'm just very happy and feel so amazing..wkwkww..
Hehehe..
I can see many many korean artists..yahh..All SM Artists: BOA,Kangta,TVXQ,Girls Generation, Super Junior,SHINee,F(x),Exo...WOW Especially TAEMIN.....AMazing,,isn't it???

I have book the ticket for festival position and it near with stage..
Yehee..I'll show u the stage..

SMTOWN World Live Tour III @Jakarta Stage

Tadaaaaa...that's the stage...I bought the Festival..but still don't know which festival i got..Hope Festival A or B..hehehe...

Emmm...
Happy happy happy..everytime i think of this..It would make me smile by myself..wkwkwkwkw...
Feel insane..hahahaha...
Yahh...Still wait 22 September 2012..
This is my first time go to Jakarta and First time to join the concert...hahahahaha...

Thanks to the God and my Family support me :p

^^

:((

Saturday, 28 July 2012

Falling down,,,

Last Thursday is really worst day for me..

I've my presentation with my group, I'm a Project Manager for this Project..

But during the presentation, the lecturer asked many question till I can't answer and so did my friends..

When one of lecturer ask my friends, my friends can't answer it, all because I can't manage all well.. I didn't give them what should they really do.. Our system have many logical error..What the hell.. We are defeat by lecturer.. They asked so many answer..I can't hold on.. Really need something or someone to help me to face it.. I can't hold on anymore that time.. But still to.. Yahh.. so damn sad.... :(

I never feel like that before...this is the first time I feel i'm feeling fail in life... Feeling crash like a hell..

I cried whole night for what've done...

Really sad... :'(

I really afraid that my friends would be failed because of my unprofessional management..SHIT....

What should I do God?

Someone could tell me?
Sorry my friends...My team...
I'm failed.. I don't wanna give up..:'( :'(

:'( :'( :'(

:(( :(( :((

Trying to believe but sometimes really make us dissapointed

Friday, 20 July 2012

B E L I E V E

Believe someone and keep it believe was a beautiful thing.. but this life never escape from the lies..

so believe is too hard to keep it forever...

When u've decided to always believe him/her, they possibly don't decided to always saying truth to you.. It's hurt, isn't it?
Hahaha.

They might be forget to grant their promise to us..hahah..

They might be got something important than our promise..haha

They might be feeling "It's important?"
Hahha..
Many possibly..hahaha..

I even don't know what am I talking about.wkwkkwk..


^^

Taemin Birthday 18 July 2012

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Yeheee...Today is my Idol's Birthday..
Feel so excited even thought that I can't give him a gift..hhohoh..

but nevermind I make a wish for him and for myself in my heart : p
Emmm..
This is the first time, really a first time I'm so addicted with Artist.. and  he is Korean Artist..
I'll introduce my Idol to all of you >,<

• Full Name: Lee Taemin (이태민)
• Nicknames: Taemin
• Birthdate: July 18, 1993
• Hometown: Dongbong-gu, Seoul
• Height: 175-179cm
• Weight: 50-55kg
• Blood Type: B
• Family: Parents, Older Brother
• Favorite Color: White, Yellow, Red
• Favorite Food: Steak/Beef
• Favorite Artists/Role Models: Michael Jackson, Usher, Justin Timberlake
• Hobbies/Specialties: Dancing [Popping], Piano, Mandarin, Listening To Music

Emmm..He is Maknae in his group... still young but Today he is really become a MAN..hehe.
Not a BOY :p

Last night I drew chibi figure of Taemin..heheh
Let me show you..I'm so proud of my drawing *actually taught by one of my friend :p
But nevermind, as long as I draw it with my heart..hihih

Happy Birthday My Lovely Taemin..
Wish u always stay happy and healthy and always perform the best for yourself, your family, your group, your company and for us.... ^^
May all your dreams come true....

Can't describe

Tuesday, 17 July 2012

Un-Describable feeling..

Last night I just heard that my Best Friend's Mom was passed away. This news totally defect me. 

My heart keep beating, my eyes seems filled by a ton of tears..I can't hold on and I walk out from the class.

I sat at stair and keep thinking what's really happened.

Yahh...I can't face this truth, I feel very very sad that can't describe. My tears keep falling down like the rain.

I can't imagine how my dear friend face this truth..Totally down.. :'(
Dear friend, hold on and I know u're strong. : )

Tell me and shout me when u need me..I'll be everywhere for you ..

Life is so unpredictable, human born and passed away is a must. But it's so sad when the sad thing, passed away happened on our friends or family around us..

So I just have a word, Cherish them before they walked away from ur life. 

^^

Keep calm and carry on :)

Thursday, 31 May 2012

Hohoho..I think I make the post triple a month...In the early of month, middle of month and the end of month..wkwkwk..
May I just got 3 post and it's really schedule at early, middle and end..wkwkkww..

Today I wanna tell about my half month life since 14 May till today..
I walk through this month with many kind of emotion and weather.. Happy, Joy, Sad, Cry, Rainy day, Sunny day, Cloudy day..Hahaha..

First that I wanna to mention is about my assignment.. I did my assignment not really well.. I think I won't got the good result for it..:(
I should try my best for my next 2 big assignment..I'm stress of them..I hate this kind of life :(
I don't like stress :'(
But It must to achieve my graduation... Keep Calm and Carry On ^,^..
I know I can do it..although it's bit hard..
Hwaiting !!!

Second that I have to have my holiday soon.. I'll go for a vacation with my classmates at Bintan..Yehehee..
The schedule is on 9-10 June..We go for 2 days 1 night..hehe...Hope it will be a great vacation..and unforgettable memories..hehe..
We are all about 20 person..
And today is already 31 May..How I give a reason for my boss to take this leave???
How how??
Somebody help me...
I want to tell him honestly..but would he allowed ?? huhuhu..
then if I lie to himm.. After this vacation..My friends will upload photo to Facebook..and how to face this problem if they found out this lie...HUAAAAAA :'(...This would be my homework for these week to bring out the best reason...~.~

Third, Life is unpredictable..people come and people go... What should we do to make all perfect???
We are unperfect human..how to make all things perfect?
Who can teach me?
When people nice to you.. appreciate it..don't let down them, but sometime just to hard to make all perfect..
Sorry if I let you down..
Everything happens for a reason..and I believe it...
Realize it and follow your heart :)
I will try to make all perfect but need to sacrifice something...^^

Yeahhh..
So those my words :)

Hwaiting all !!

Life for stress

Monday, 14 May 2012

It has been 14 May..half of this month have been passed...
I just don't realize it..I will face an final exam for this term 1 week more..OMG @.@
It's really fast.. and now i also got one assignment that make me so stressed...huhuhu..
Hoping i can done it well... and release myself from all of these, I'm too tired to do this kind of assignment..I hate it >,<

After this term, I must face my short term in my college.. The reason I decided to have a short term emm,,to lighten my 7th term.. because I also will face heavy assignment at 7th term..
Even though it's hard, but have to keep move on..
It's one year left..After this one year..Emmm..I'm free..heheh..
Free means no assignment concern with college again..but i'm sure will miss my college life after that..hehehe

Ok well..today is Monday,, many people said It's Monday blue...
The day that so blue....so bored...so lame..so uneasy... *my awful description =))

Yeah... It's time for work..
Happy Working All ^^
Have a nice day :)

Fighting ^^

Thursday, 03 May 2012

Taemin ahh..
Nobody support me to loving you..They said I was crazy...were I?
:'(
I just in a short time being in love with you, you are cute..you dance great and your smile is sweet..so I like to see you..
Huhuhuh..
I just one of million fans of you..hohoho..
I think there would be another fans of you would be more crazy than me..hoohoh..
Yeah...I just like to see you..
Actually I'm afraid that i would be same as other fans..they are no crazy..they just fond of you coz of ur cuteness.hahahah..
Well..
I should forget this thing and put you in another side..I know it couldn't happened in real life..so i just imagine of you..hahhaah.. <3

emmm.. realize that i live in Batam-Indonesia, so don't think too much about the idol or something else..heheh and now I'm not a kid anymore, i must fight for my future..hohooh..

But before that,,I've to finished my study for one year more..Hope it can pass faster.. I want to have my own world..Have many things to learn to gain..hehehe..

I hope i can give comfy life for my family and myself..hoho..
Must be work hard and trust myself that i can..heheh..
So you guys also must have the spirit to fight for your future ^^



FIGHTING !!!!!

Thanks God

Friday, 20 April 2012

Hohoho..

I've been forgotten what I've got...
And it has already 5 days gone since my flashdisk was founded..Thanks God..
I feel grateful for what i've got and received..
Amituofo..XXLMCB..

O yeahh guys..this June we are planning to have a vacation at Bintan Lagoi...
I'm so happy,,waiting for it so much.heheh.

Here some Lagoi View :

Yihaa..Waiting for it...yeahhh...^^

My Flashdisk

Sunday, 15 April 2012

Ohh.. Flashdisk..
Where are you exactly???
I can't sleep, can't eat, can't drink, can't concentrate, can't go to toilet because of you..
You are very important to me..
I don't know how to live without you...

Please asap appear in front of me..
I can't do anything without you..
:'( :'(..HUAAAAAAAAA :'(

Please please..if you are now at somebody else..please tell him/her..You're mine...hiksss...
All my life depend on you..hikss...
How how how??


Tomorrow i will find you at my office..if you are there..please stay tune..don't go anywhere....
Hoping hoping hoping..you are really at my desk,...

Good Friday ^^

Friday, 06 April 2012

Laziness make me didn't post for a time.hahah..
It's April now,
and today I'm on holiday, because today is Good Friday..
Just now i waked up at 9 and breakfast at 10, and now I'm doing my assignment.
Damn boring assignment make me feel can't relax for a long time, hate this kind of assignment >:p

From early March till today, many things happened in my life,, Just don't know where should i start it..kwkwk..
I got many sad and happy things happened, sad is i don't know..wuahhahaha..(don wan to know)
and the happy things are my little sister got scholarship for her university fee later for 4 years. I feel proud of her. And this end of April, she will facing the Final Test for her High School, hoping she will got high score and get over this test. *praying.

About myself, i just hope everything will run smoothly, either is about my work, study or love..Hope it will be balance although i know is hard wkwkwk..
but i try to priority the important one..hehehe..
and now is April, I just wondering if this December will really be a doom's day for our planet ? :-/
I hope it just a prediction and won't be happen..I'm afraid, i don wan to lose my family, my friend and people around me. They just too precious for me.
Feeling grateful because they are staying beside me..Thanks God for everything.
I will learn to cherish them more.. Please give me the way to show how much I love them..
Hahahha,

For my Family, I love them so much, but i really don't know how to show my love. I'm just too shy to show my love to them in front of them, but i will do behind. Hope they will  know it *love ^^

For my Friends, Cherish them so much, they are bringing the joy and laugh for me. I think my life should be like hell if they are not staying around me. They're like the clothes, always accompany me where ever I go, can't live without them. I will feeling something missing if they're gone ..: )

For God, Thanks for everything You have made in my life.It's really wonderful..
Appreciate them so much..

Have a nice weekend all :*


^^

Recently life

Saturday, 25 February 2012

Lazy me make me didn't make a post for a time..
Hhahaha..
about 19 days my blog was idle..hehe..Sorry Love Cappucino :p

Yeahhh..
For these 19 days..many things happened in my life.
Work, Study, Friendship and also Love..hahhaa..
I think this post would be the longest post =p

Work ^_^
My workplace, everything was running as usual.
But one of my colleague taken a leave for give birth of baby..hihih..
She is one my best colleague, she always care of us and she did everything with her silly face..hahah..
She taught us alot..but seems she had some uneasy at this workplace.
Hope she will be patient for all of the problem..hehe..*praying.

Beside that, my supervisor gonna resign soon :'(
He will go to a better workplace..He is really smart..but nobody realize that..
We're always got some solution from him..
Many of us got reward from his effort..how poor he is...
But I believe one day he will got big reward for his own effort..Ganbatte Oppa ^^

Myself at workplace..HUAAAAA :'( , my computer suddenly gimme some problem..i can switch on my computer..but the CPU inside seems got a problem, maybe on it's mainboard..But my computer still have guarantee...then it was sent for repair, hope it can recovered soon..I can't live without you :'(
WUhahahahahha...

Yeahhh..that's about my workplace =p

Study ^_^
About my study, now i'm sitting on 6th semester of my university life..
It will be end soon.
Now I'm facing an assignment, it called "Metpen-Metedologi Penelitian" or Research Methodology..
I must find out the suitable topic for my study specialization.
My specialization is Networking.
but now i'm so confused to face it..
I haven't got the suitable topic yet..Make me confused @@
Hoping i can got it asap..Ganbatte ZLFonk : ) You can !!

Friendship ^_^
Talk about friendship..
It's hard sometime, it will be everlasting but it'll be change..wkwkkww..
So the conclusion is " Friendship will change as the time flies but it'll be everlasting and be a memories".


Love ^_^
Love is beautiful word in this world if you know how to feel it, how to care it and how to grow it..heheh.
For me now, still can't accept anyone to be my soulmate..Maybe i don't dare for it or maybe i don't have any feeling for them..Everytime i've tried to accept them. But my heart hasn't ready for it..
I can't fight with my heart unless it'll be bring hurt for others.
So better i keep my heart by my side..keep till I'm ready for it..wondering when is it ? :-/


That's my story..how bout your story friends??
hehehehhe..
J.k ^^

Sincere has been thrown,,

Monday, 06 February 2012

Well and really well,
My sincere has been thrown...
But it never mind..
It has been just a joke..
Not seriously take..

And it really just a joke..
But it seems a bit hurt..
Don't know why...
Just hoping..
Get Well Soon...

^^

Dragon Head..

Wednesday, 01 February 2012

Chinese New Year is almost over and my holiday is really over..
Now back as usual activity..Working at morning..Studying at Evening, but my college haven't started yet..
It'll be back normal next week..
After this week..I'm going to step up new semester..
Hope i can pass it smoothly..
I hope my college life will end soon,,wuahhahha...

Telling about Chinese New Year..It's really fun,,
I'm going back on 22 January 2012..
It's the night that all family gathering and eat together..In Mandarin is 团圆饭..
After 22 January...It's first day of Chinese Lunar New Year 大年初一。
In Chinese culture..we must wearing red cloth...it's mean Fortune and Luck..
Heheheh..
So I wear Red Dress that day...=p

Hihihi..Me in Red Dress :p

Hehehe...many culture that can't tell out one by one..hehehe..
Just really feeling great celebrate Lunar New Year at Selatpanjang..
hehehe..
These pictures below i took when i was at my Hometown ^^

Me with Barongsai

Me and My sisters

Akhun hia,Selly,Me

Qi,Me,Ai,Suank

Family only Daughter :p

Hehhe..Got really great and happy moment..:)
and hoping in this Dragon Year..Everything will going smoothly..heheh..
^^

My Hometown..

Thursday, 19 January 2012

Heheheh...3 days more, I will go back to my hometown...yihiiii...

Selatpanjang.......wait me...

The Chinese New Year Season make me feeling warm and excited..coz i can gathering with my family and my friends. We share the joy and happiness inside.

My hometown will be filled by a full of Chinese New year sensation..It's really GREAT...

THUMBS UP for my Home Town..Selatpanjang..hehe..

Selatpanjang really a warmth place for celebrate an Chinese New Year.

It will be very crowded..

You guys can try to celebrate your Chinese New Year at there..won't regret and disappointed i think..:p

Happy Chinese Lunar New Year all :D

For beauty

Monday, 16 January 2012

Women o women, girls o girls... 

Many of them sacrifice anything just for beauty,,so am I. 

But I don't seriously focus inside..kwkkw..
Yesterday I'd gone to BCS to having facial..the first time I'm taking facial..hihihihi..

Because Lunar New Year is coming soon, i must cleaning my face from blackheads and other dirt on my face. So i go to my friend's facial salon, I'd taking facial for about 2 hours. They use the machine to take up my dirt. The machine like a vacuum,small vacuum and rolling around my face and take up my dirt..my face seen clean and fresh..hahah..
But my face is swollen and looks red. and now my face like monster..

But for beauty, i must be patient till 2-3 days and my face will look really clean and beautiful..wkwkwkkwkwkk :p..That's is girls...wkwkkw..

Whuaaaa..
I'm so sleepy at this time..Hope i can going back quickly and sleep till i satisfied..wkwkwkk..
But after knock off i must go to BCS to collect my colleagues' birthday cake and buy some things that i need..heheh..
And today is my Big Sis birthday..Wish she have a blissful day and always stay healthy and happy ^^
Happy Birthday My Dearest Sis : ))

It's Over and I'm free ..yuhuuuuu

Saturday, 14 January 2012

Let me give you one good news Friend!!!..
My final exam is over..........I'm feel very excited.....wkwkkwkw..
But still have the last exam i must face..that is Toeic Test..but it's not very burden me..because I always fail for this subject..bruakkakakkakaka..I'm used on it =p

Then still one week more to celebrate Chinese Lunar New Year...and I will go back to my hometown.
I can't put this feeling in word..really really happy..OMG..
and today is Saturday,, will knock off at 2PM later..hehehe..i will go back and sleep till i'm satisfied..YEhhhhhh...Tonight will have dance practice. So i must wake up before 7..hehe..
YEahhh....really enjoy this weekend.

Have a nice weekend Friends...
^^

Over thinking @@

Thursday, 12 January 2012

What I'm thinking about? What I'm thinking about?
I'll be crazy if I'm over thinking again,
I don't know why..My mind always think negative side...:((
Last day,
I've got offer from my friend to perform dance for 1 month more for Samsung show..
But but i can't join this, because I must working and so must my friends.
then i offer this chance to my friends. I thought they maybe have time for this. Although I'm not sure, but i think this is a good opportunity to show off their talent..hehehe..
Then then then,,i give this news to my friend, and she will meet with the Man who held this Samsung show.
They said they will meet last night.and i hope it'll be success, so they can perform dance.

So precisely last night, my friend (name Adit), she message me that she have calling that Man, and maybe will meet at night about 8. But in the half of message, she suddenly doesn't reply my message. I thought maybe pending or what. Then I tried to calling her, but it's not active..
Oh My goshhh!! What happened?
I'm afraid, i'm afraid that she may bully or what like the film do..
I'm feeling uneasy and trying trying message and calling her. It's still not active..What should I do? What should I do?
Then i message that Guy, I asking, that you have meet with my friend?
and he said that meeting will change to tonight..So i don't know what must i do..Last night i'm really very tired. So i think that it maybe i'm over thinking..So i just slept.

Then this morning, I'm trying again to calling my friend. It's still no active..
I thought what happened heh?
Hoping i'm just thinking too much,
and then after i arrived my office..I received a message..Surprise and Fortunately, it was from my friend..Fiuuhhh... My heart relieved suddenly..Oh gosh..I'm really thinking too much...
It make me really worried...@@..

I think that i really must thinking positive more than negative,,can't influence by film..wkwkkwkw
Yeahh...sharing a lot..tired...:))
Today i must face my exam again..last two days. Buck Up and Goodluck for me and for my friends.
^^

War begin O,O

Tuesday, 10 January 2012

Hell yeahhh,,

This week will be a little stress week..We are facing our final exam...Feeling no hope for this exam, don't have any preparation.I don't know how to face this..HUAAAAA :'(

I have do the best..and let God do the rest...

Today we will take an Computer Networking Enterprise..I don't study anything...How bout my fate today OMG?
The War is begin, i must wear myself a safety clothes and safety shoes...bruakakkakakakakaa...
Hoping this week will end soon. After this week..Everything gonna be free..wkwkwkw..
Just waiting Lunar New Year..Yihaaaaa...*\(^,^)/*
Quick Quick Quick..... :p


^^

Tonight~~

Saturday, 07 January 2012

Yohooo..
It's Saturday already..
Tonight i will perform dance at Pasific Hotel for wedding party..Feel very excited and nervous..
Hope i can perform well and so do my friends..
Buck up Xin Ai, Meily,Wilson,Ricky and Dodo..
hhehehe..

By the way,,
Those few days i'm feeling very tired..Sleep too late and wake up too early..*yawning..
Feeling don't have any time to take a rest well..
HUAAAAA :'(
After this Saturday,,I'll face my final test for 5th semester..It's really fast..I'm going to face my 6th semester..wkwkkw
Eahhh.,,Fast..fast...It'll be end soon..hihhi

Let's have a nice weekend all ^^

First post on 2012..=p

Tuesday, 03 January 2012

New Year 2012..Will you treat me well?hihihi...
I won't hope too much..just make my life more colorful than before..

after this new year event had passed..now what we are waiting for is Chinese Lunar New Year..
that is the big event for Chinese people...
This Year Chinese New Year was on 23 January 2012..
Only for 20 days we are waiting to celebrate it.
I will go back to my hometown to celebrate this eve..I'm back to my lovely hometown on 22 January and came back to Batam on 29 January...Take a leave for 7 days, but 5 days of that was unpaid leave..so my salary will be cut off for 5 days..huhuhu.
But for Chinese New Year..I will do anything just for go back to my hometown..hahahhahah..
I even can quit my job..hhahaa..that's me..but maybe just for this few year..this few year that many of my friend still go back to celebrate this eve..
I think if the year pass and pass..after 10 years maybe..I won't going insane like quit my job for Chinese New Year eve.
But can't guarantee it..Let's see next =p

Yeahhh.Friendss..
Wishing u have a ton of luck in this year..Happiness,Healthy and Wealthy always stay beside you :)
^^